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Monday, January 14

Goodbye Blogger and hello Movable Type :) Yes, hubby and I finally managed to finish our negitiations about a domain and is the end result. I've been very busy for the last 24 hours trying to get everything set up over there and ready for primetime. If it doesn't resolve please use until further notice. the new home of Crunchblogger will be at, so please change your links accordingly.
Sara wrote on 8:17 PM - Link - Comments

People never, ever make any kind of html code which is not structurally sound and can be validated. Do the right thing from the beginning when you're learning. I'm in the process of cleaning up the worst errors of my past coding history. It's a nightmare trying to navigate through the jungle of badly used tags and definitions and it's going to take forever before I'm all said and done.

Please do yourself a favour and take the time it takes to do it right the first time.
Sara wrote on 3:11 PM - Link - Comments

Big news coming in a day or two :)
Sara wrote on 2:11 AM - Link - Comments

Reasons for getting paid hosting:

Tripod now have a bandwidth limit of 1 GB of traffic a month and they only offer 20 MB of website space (I don't know if the space limit is for new costumors or it'll be for oldies too)
Topcities (Where my graphics and other personal pages are) gives you 150 MB of space, but only offers 1 GB of traffic a month and you cannot upload anything bigger than 900 Kb in size. And there's limits to how fast you can upload things.

Neither of these hosts offers any cgi worth speaking about (A few preinstalled scripts is all) and they have the most hedious banners/pop-ups.
Sara wrote on 1:12 AM - Link - Comments

Sunday, January 13

I sat and watched as he was talking on the phone and laughing at something which was said at the other end. Something which obviously was very, very funny (If I'm to believet the laugh). I listened when he hung up and proceeded to tell me that nothing was new, but just the same old, same old. And then I started to cry the silent tears as so many times before because the feeling of being left out, of not being important yet again had hit home. He never tells me anything anymore and I sometimes wonder why I keep trying.
Sara wrote on 9:38 PM - Link - Comments

I hate when I have the feeling of only being kept around for other peoples amusement. *sigh* It's not a good day today.
Sara wrote on 9:31 PM - Link - Comments

Palm Reading Results

You have a good imagination, and often exhibit sensitivity to others.

There is a tremendous amount of intensity in your mental processes.

At times, you may tend to be overly sensitive to criticism. You can be excessively cautious or narrow in your outlook unless you receive the right kind of encouragement.

You are inclined to change your mind about things fairly often. This can make you seem very contradictory, since you are so passionate and sincere about each new idea you embrace.

You are a warm hearted person, with much love to give. Your high energy level enhances your ability to express affection.

There may be times in your life when you give in to feelings of sadness or depression.

You are likely to make decisions based on intuition or feelings rather than intellect.

You are naturally charming and inclined to be flirtatious.

There are inconsistencies in your energy level, possibly triggered by external factors or emotional changes. No matter what circumstances come your way, you have a generally positive attitude which may help you overcome life's obstacles.

Your high energy level and optimistic outlook draw people to you and increase your problem-solving capabilities.

You have a basically strong constitution, and should enjoy good health most of the time.

You are likely to make many changes in the direction of your life. This may be based on interruptions due to health problems, or it may be that you just have trouble focusing your energy.

No matter what other factors influence your personality, there is an under lying sense of practicality that you can draw on if you wish.

Online Palm Reading via a number of people.
Sara wrote on 7:21 PM - Link - Comments

The inability to give straight answers to a clear question. What is so hard about either saying yes, no, wait, in a month, in two months instead of saying well I'm not sure what to think. We have talked about it on and off for about a year and I still get those awful non-answers. *sigh* If I had been working I'd gone and done it myself already. Sometimes it just sucks having to negotiate every little move you want to make.
Sara wrote on 1:18 PM - Link - Comments

Friday, January 11

It really is bad when you have to go hunting online for pictures with snow, just so you can say you have seen snow this season. This year I have seen maybe 1 inch of snow, totalled. Last year it was much, much closer to 1 ft. I wonder if there is any explanation to why there is such a difference this year. Hubby is happy though. He don't care much, if at all, about snow because he's the one who has to drive and as he says, "There's too many idiots on the road who doesn't know how to drive when the snow falls."
Sara wrote on 11:49 PM - Link - Comments

Yay the basic framework for when and or if, is almost done. Just a few (hopefully) minor adjustments needs to get done.
Sara wrote on 10:03 PM - Link - Comments

Friday Five

1. What was your first job?
I had a small paper route delivering the weekly add-paper in our neighborhood. Didn't pay a whole lot but it was fun, except for the big and mean dogs.

2. How old were you when you had your first kiss?
That must have been just after I was born when I was put in my mothers arms. The first kiss from hubby was somewhere around December 25, 1997 *g*

3. What was your first car? What happened to it?
I have never had a drivers license, but I'm hoping sometime this year and I'll be driving around in a Dodge Neon when it happens :)

4. What was your first concert?
Johnny Cash in the Tivoli Gardens in Copenhagen, Denmark. It was one of those spur of the moment things, but it turned out great.

5. How do you plan to spend your weekend?
I know we'll be doing a lot of running around and shopping for stuff we need. And there should be a trip to the movies in there somewhere. We're not sure it's going to be LOTR or something else. Both of us want to see it, but we're not sure we can handle that much time in a dark room after having been sick for the last week, so we're probably opting for something else and wait for LOTR to come on DVD.
Sara wrote on 4:41 PM - Link - Comments

It feels so good when you find the solution to something which you have been beating around for hours and nomatter what you did it just didn't seem to work. But it does now :)

Guess I was a little too fast there. At least partly.... I wanted to try out Movable Type on my home machine (Win98se with Apache installed), so I can find out if it really is the application for me when going do a paid domain, but I cannot for the life of me get it to work. Either the mt-load.cgi just sits there and spins and spins and spins (doesn't load at all) or I get asked if I want to download the file. Hmmm *scratching head* Of course I could use Greymatter when time comes, but the ability to run multiple blog/journals under MT without having to install multiple versions is something I really, really want to be able to do (Yes I have plans for this).
Sara wrote on 2:08 PM - Link - Comments

Thursday, January 10

I'll be nice and spare you for the details, but I'm still feeling like crap going off the Prednisone cold turkey. Unfortunately there is nothing I can do about it now, at least not that I know if. I just have to wait it out and hope it doesn't take too long. Might smack the docs head upside down though.

I was nosing around the hose of my other pages and it appears that they have lowered the monthly bandwidth usage for nonpaying costumors to 500 MB a month. That is not a whole lot when you have a site offering PSP Picture Tubes and other misc. graphics stuff. It's going to be interesting to see how often my site is going to be disabled for going over the limit. Of course I could pay them $25 a month and get 11 GB of bandwidth in addition to some other goodies, but they're too new in the paid hosting business for me to want to put my monies there just yet. I have to wait and see how it turns out.

I'm not really sure I want a paid domain for my graphics sites at all because of the badwidth usage involved. The day I cannot find any "free" webhost to host those two pages, I might just have to pull them offline. Or if I do get a domain fo my own rotate some of my offerings on a limited basis and just have the personal and blog pages as my main content. That would also give me a little less work to worry about.

Truth to be told I'm not really that much into graphics work as I used to be. It was fun in the begining, but I just don't feel like I can keep up with it anymore or find the inspiration to create something which is truly unique. I like to work on my own terms and time, but when you have a page with tubes, presets and much else, people seem to expect that I update every so often and come up with new ideas all the time and I just cannot work that way.
Sara wrote on 11:35 PM - Link - Comments

I'm on the first full day off Prednisone and it's not really that fun. The doc didn't do the tapering down thing like everyone has been saying is the best way to do it. It was only a 5 day dose which really shouldn't be too much, but I feel totally lost in my own pointy head. I knew it would be one of those days when I woke and felt the touch of being in a wicked mood. I hate waking up and feel like that from the get go. Doesn't leave me a chance to get started on good terms with the day. Instead I just have acknowledge and wait it out *growling*

There's rumors that Blogger will start to charge for a premium service, whatever that will include. I'm not sure I'll trust the service enough to follow over when it happens. I have seen too many decisions and quirks which imho are badly made. I have enjoyed using Blogger while it was in the land of free, but more and more is talking for finding a paid host or other to replace Blogger, so I can get the complete control, setup and choice of application to use. But I'll give it a little more time to see how it goes when Blogger goes premium and how many problems that gives the paid subscribers.
Sara wrote on 2:24 PM - Link - Comments


I used to use a saying which states something like "Lonely, but not alone."

Lately it has been on my mind quite a lot as I'm trying to deal with some of the feelings of being a bit lonely and isolated at times while doing all the waiting for different issues which has to fall into place before I have just a minimal chance of changing things around to something more fulfilling.

Yes I do feel lonely and isolated, because I haven't managed to secure an offline support network of my own. All my actions and needs of support are still very much dependent on the few times a year dh and I go down to visit the American part of the family. When we're back home, I'm pretty much dependent on when he wants to get out of the house or I can talk him into making a random car trip into the unknown.

I wouldn't feel so bad if I had my own means of transportation because then I could go hunting for social situations on my own. I have mentioned before that I would love to take some classes at the local community college and that would definitely be one of my top priorities (pending all the ESL testing I would have to do before hand), not to mention I would be able to actually look for work or make use of some of the many varied local cultural arrangements in the area.

I am not alone though. I have a wonderful husband who does his best to allivate some of these feelings, two extremely funny cats who will not let me brood over things for too long and a few semi-close online friends. These have been my choices for the last 4 years, but I need a little more variaty so I don't end up wearing everyone to the bone.

I need to try and do something on my own accord instead of realying on a few select choices. I need to challange myself a little bit more and I need to prepare for when change will take place instead of just sitting around wondering about what the change will be and when it will be. I need to be ready so I will not be taken by surprise. I need to start moving. I need to make an effort reaching out to other people instead of sitting on my butt all day wondering where all the people went. I need to make an effort.
Sara wrote on 12:25 AM - Link - Comments

Wednesday, January 9

I need to find an easy way to keep two blogs. There is all the day to day random short-lived chatter which I have been so good at doing for the last year and which I wouldn't live without. However I'm starting to see a pattern of longer more reflective journal type of posts and I really think they deserve room of their own instead of having to swim around in the pool of clutter and I deserve it too.
Sara wrote on 10:51 PM - Link - Comments

What do you do when online and bored and all the usual places seems to be deserted.

Yeah sometimes it is not very fun to be on a different schedule than anyone else in the world (Well I know it's not exactly like that, but it feels like it sometimes). I am lucky enough to have hubby at home with me, most of the day when everyone else is at work but the dark evenings can feel pretty lonely at times.
Sara wrote on 10:07 PM - Link - Comments

I have added a couple of new reads and a few oldies have been readded again :)

Hoopty is insanely funny at times.

Jema is a fellow Nordic blogger/journal type of person and I'm happy to call her friend, even though we don't always manage to stay in contact as much as I would like to.

Diane is finally back in the land of blog/journal.

Heather is doing the Friday 5 and now I might actually be able to remember to give my own answers.
Sara wrote on 11:32 AM - Link - Comments

How much is enough?

Someone asked me how much is enough. Truth to be told I am not completely sure about that question. I guess it really depends on what exactly we're talking about and wheter or not it is on a personal level or something not quite within a personal reach.

For me personally I know I've been talking and thinking a lot about certain subjects because I feel I have had enough time of waiting, wondering and worrying. For me it is more than enough to have waited a little more than 4 years for something which I also know probably will take a lot longer before I can move on and maybe concentrate about different things.

I have also had enough of watching myself wading around the same subject like a bull waiting to charge at first convinient moment. It doesn't quite do anything good for me, unless you consider bouts of extreme broodiness, moodiness, anger, fear and frustration to be good ways to spend most of you time while awake.

It didn't quite use to be like that, but the longer it all takes the more often I find myself dwelling on things and mulling it all over until I've caught myself in a downward spiral of no good. I know this and I know I really ought to try to concentrate about different things instead of spending so much time being concerned about subjects which I cannot do anything about anyway.

But that is me. Most times I somehow manage to think it's easier to concentrate about things I cannot do anything about, shouldn't be doing anything about or things which will do my no good either way. I am extremely good at spending time where I shouldn't and not putting my energy where it really matters.
Sara wrote on 9:14 AM - Link - Comments

Tuesday, January 8

Things might not flow as fast around here as they sometimes do. Blogger seems to be having problems yet again. (Maria I know I owe you a mail in reply to your offer. I'm still trying to decide what to do with it all.)
Sara wrote on 11:56 PM - Link - Comments

I really, really, really, really don't like working with frames. *shudder*, but it seems to be the only way I can get a few things reorganised into something which might turn out to be less complicated for me to manage if I decide I want to keep most of my pages around for a bit longer. Time will tell what happens.
Sara wrote on 9:58 PM - Link - Comments

Lately I've been playing with the idea of maybe taking a college course here and there, to keep myself moving but before I can even really think about doing that I have to take or that course (Not cheap either) to prove that I am proficient in the written and spoken English and able to function on a college level setting. Even courses that are not college level, but just oridinary continuing education for adults have the same requirements. It's beginning to look a lot like it will not be that easy to get do anything of what I've been dreaming to do. Just a few more pieces of red tape I guess.
Sara wrote on 5:37 PM - Link - Comments

I might see a trip to Washinton, DC to Embassy row sometime within the next couple of years if the new Visa Waiver Country Passport Rules are going to be interpreted very anally by the DOJ when it passes the Senate. You see they want those countries to include biometric data such as fingerprints, iris photo and other such items in the passport for easier inditification. This is going to be a task which I doubt they want spread out to the smaller consular offices because of the complexity. So far I have been able to go to a small one man operated consular office in Des Moines to get my passport renewed, but I see this change if the DOJ wants all passports, new and old, changed. Of course one can now hope they'll only demand it for new passports and not all already existing ones and countries who do not wish to comply with these rules will again have to do the apply for visa to visit the US rute.

I understand why they're doing it, but it can give some interesting problems for people already living over here who haven't been to their home countries for ages.
Sara wrote on 11:20 AM - Link - Comments

Monday, January 7

I wish I had a webcam, so you all could see the extremely sweet, cuddly and purring kitty which is snoozing on the desk between me and the keyboard. And yes it is diffecult to type when you got a cat taking up most of the space on the desk.
Sara wrote on 10:13 PM - Link - Comments

I'm finding myself with quite a lot of impatience yet again. I know that things will take the time it takes, I know that somehow, somewhere there will be an end to all of this waiting and I know that someday I will be able to unfold my wings and fly but the time is slowly killing me and my abilities to communicate with other people. That is one thing I have noticed lately, that I seem to be more than slightly impaired in my interactions with other people. I so much want to be out and about, make friends so I don't have to contend with hubby and family all the time, but somewhere I cannot do the needed work. I might get a mail from someone and it'll sit in my inbox for time without end until I eventually delete it together with all the other mail sitting there, because I just don't have the energy to do what needs to be done. At other times I come across something which I really want to comment about etc and I make a reply but end up deleting it because I don't feel it is good enough, that I am not good enough. There is a few frequent visitors/readers and I'm forever greatful for you who keep coming back despite my inability to write anything which makes sense to anyone.

I am thinking about the future of my various pages (graphics, tubes, personal etc) and what I want to do with them. All of them, except this blog have been inactive for several months without new stuff being added other than maybe giving them some new graphics so it looks like I'm still active (It really just is a smokescreen). I don't know what I'm going to do with it all. I'd been dreaming about getting my own domain so I could have most of my stuff in one place, but all the inactivity really doesn't make the cost of a domain (yes I know you can get them dirtcheap) worth it.

I don't know.....
Sara wrote on 5:08 PM - Link - Comments

It is a sad day to find out that Moyra of The Webjewels have closed down shop. I know she has not been doing anything with the jewels for a very long time, but I'm still sad to see he go :(
Sara wrote on 2:59 AM - Link - Comments

Sunday, January 6

Another reason why it's bad living in an apartment complex and having to share a washer and dryer with other people:
People think they can start their laundry and leave for hours and not take care of their laundry while other people are waiting to use the same washer and dryer. It sucks and I hate to dig out peoples laundry from either the washer and dryer. Would you like for someone else to handle your most intimate pieces of clothing? THis is just another reason why I'm so much looking forward to the day when hubby and I can get our own house with our own washer and dryer and not have to worry about whether or not people show a little common sense and finish off their laundry when they have started it.
Sara wrote on 5:01 PM - Link - Comments

Recently I have gotten mail from people thinking that the layout I'm using here is being hijacked by other people. It is not so. It is a generic Blogger template which anyone who uses Blogger can use. I do not have any rights to it. I just used it at a time when I felt like I needed something new, but couldn't come up with my own. Speaking of which, I really need to do something around here but I'm having one heck of a time coming up with something these days.
Sara wrote on 4:56 PM - Link - Comments

Friday, January 4

There are purrrrs in heaven this week :(
Sara wrote on 3:14 PM - Link - Comments

I know I owe some of you some email, but please have patience with me until I feel better. (Have a docs apointment tomorrow morning)
Sara wrote on 12:10 AM - Link - Comments

Thursday, January 3

I have been reviewed over at The Weblog Review and it's not all negative :) Somewhere I had kinda feared that it would be mostly negative because I really don't have much else to write about, but me, myself and me.

The worst thing about being sick is coughing so much that you get a headache from it. Really makes a hard time for productive coughing when your head hurts.
Sara wrote on 3:19 PM - Link - Comments

Wednesday, January 2

I am tired, I am sick, my body hurts, my sinuses are terminally stuffed, but at least I can breather without involving too much work though I cannot wait until I can sleep in another position than sitting straight up. If I try to do anything else it feels like I'm getting strangled and I'm losing my breath very fast.
Sara wrote on 11:09 PM - Link - Comments

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