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Monday, December 31

I will not be making any resolutions. They almost always end up not being kept and then I feel bad about not being able to keep them, so I'll skip that part of the New Year celebrations.
Sara wrote on 10:38 PM - Link - Comments

Yes we got back late last night. It was an ok couple of days but with some shit going on that I really could have been without. It seems like everytime Bob and I go to spend time with the family we get buried deep in shit flying around and people bitching at each other. And the person who needed to take the clues the most seemed to be the most clueless of them all.

We got to see Crystal and Blake all of a whole hour or so, and apparently that only happened because her sister had forced her to go. I don't think we're going to have much contact with Crystal in a long time. Neither of us have no clue why she's refusing contact, though I have my suspecions that she doesn't like our opinions about her current boyfriend who is a convicted sex offender and on the Indiana state sex offender list despite him saying that he isn't registered. It is very obvious that she doesn't want our help or any contact with us, so she can now sleep in the bed she has prepared for herself.

I finally got a chance to get on a scale and it appears that I have lost in the neighborhood of 30 something lbs in the last 3 - 4 months. I knew I had lost some but not that it was that much. A very nice surprice :) The thing is, that I haven't done a whole lot to change habbits or been exercising at any great lenght. I have mostly just changed the way I'm preparing food and some food items which really wasn't all that healthy.

There wasn't any mail from the INS waiting for me as we arrived home, so I guess I just have to wait a little longer. It would have been a nice surprice to be called for fingerprints and the medical, but maybe one of these days.

I would have loved to pick the kitties up at the kennel today, but they're not open until Wednesday. Right now it's very quiet int he apartment and I constantly catch myself looking for the two little poots in places I know they'll be sleeping or otherwise hangout.

Overall it's nice to be home and to sleep in my own bed instead of camping out on a couch. Now the cold, cold temperatures are a totally different matter. Just the short time it took for us to unload the car was more than enough time outside to wreck havoc in my lungs and left me with a little bit of trouble breathing. TG I know how I react in those situations and know how to stop some of the more serious problems earlier on.
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Sunday, December 30

I'm home and I'm tired. More to follow tomorrow, much more....
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Saturday, December 22

Now all you sorry bastards don't do anything I wouldn't do (Not a whole lot *wink*) while I'm away. Happy holidays and all of that. :)
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Friday, December 21

I think it's time to deflate some of all those overinflated elitist egos out there in the weblog/journal community.

Go and read the whole damn thread. I am trying so hard not totake it personally, but I am one of those who simply doesn't have the means to get my own server or domain right now. Yes I can code from here until eternerty (almost), so that isn't what's holding me back. Money is and I wish those superinflated elitist egos would fall off their high horses down to the reality where most people are spending the majority of their time. Sometimes some of us just have to rely on what is "free" because we cannot do it any other way. May their collective ass itch and their arms be too short to relieve themselves.
Sara wrote on 1:52 AM - Link - Comments

They made a rather amusing announcement on one of the local tv stations tonight. They claimed that winter officially would start at Friday 1.22pm (cst). I have heard those kind of announcements before and it makes me wonder how they can put an exact time on it. Wouldn't surprise me that it's something the govenrment have put into some obscure law somewhere. (This might be another "Only in America moment")
Sara wrote on 12:22 AM - Link - Comments

Thursday, December 20

I really, really hope that I can talk hubby into see LOTR over the holidays. But of course it all depends on whether or not things turn out to be a complete disaster or not. I have my fears, since there will be some not so plesant stuff we'll have to deal with (Yes again it will include the evil ex-wife).
Sara wrote on 11:45 PM - Link - Comments

Eeek Laundry, loads of laundry and there is only one dryer and washer to share between 4 apartments so I have to keep an ear on it all the time to make sure noone takes over either one before I'm done. And it all has to be done by tomorrow, because we aim to hit the road early Saturday.

Yep that also means that you most likely will not hear from me (Aren't you happy already?) until sometime in the new year, unless I can get access to a computer while away.
Sara wrote on 5:43 PM - Link - Comments

I have a game and like so many other games it has underlying music. It's beautiful music, very beautiful but everytime I play that game and listen to the music I end up crying my eyes out. I cannot explain what is going on, other than that piece of music somehow, somewhere touches something which makes me cry. It almost makes me wonder if there is something in music which beats on the same level as crying and if you happen to be in a not so good mood while listening to that music it just opens the flood gates. I don't know, but it could be an interesting experiment to make.

Do YOU have any music which makes you cry everytime you listen to it? Or am I just full of sh*t? Mail Me and let me know. It could be interesting to know if I'm the only one.
Sara wrote on 12:11 AM - Link - Comments

Wednesday, December 19

I am tired tonight. Sitting here and about to fall off my chair, but I know that I'd fall asleep the minute I'd hit the bed and I really need to sleep through the night instead of being awake half of it. It might be because I have more or less cut out any caffeine. I had too hard a time staying hydrated.

Can you tell I really have nothing to say tonight and just babbles along trying to fill out a little bit of space, instead of making yet another one-liner. *yawn*
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Tuesday, December 18

The Dream of the Ants is on of the more weird search requests I've gotten lately. But sorry people I have no clue if ants dream or not.
Sara wrote on 10:52 PM - Link - Comments

Another batch of cookies done. I might post the recipe tomorrow, if I can get my ass together and translate it first. There is another recipe I might do sometime this week, but it all depends on time etc. At least hubby is making dinner tomorrow, so I don't have to worry about it (I hope) And then there should only be minor things left to do before we leave for the holidays.
Sara wrote on 7:50 PM - Link - Comments

First part of the christmas baking down and thankfully they turned out just right. Brown cookies are a very traditional part of Denmark at Christmas time. Originally the recipe also calls for potassium carbonate, but I haven't been able to find any locally and the cookies turns out just great without.

Brown Christmas Cookies

250 g Golden Syrup (Molasses can be used instead)
125 g Butter
125 g Brown Sugar
2 tbsp Water
2 tsp Cinnamon
1 tsp Allspice
1 tsp Cardamom
1 tsp Ginger
2 tsp Cloves
500 g All Purpose flour
1 Small bag of slivered Almonds

Put syrup (or molasses), butter and brown sugar in a pot and heat until boiling point. Remove from heat and add water. Mix until well blended. Let the syrup, butter, sugar mix cool while mixing up the spices. Mix in the spices. Knead in the flour a little at a time. Cool in the fridge over night.

Rool dough out and stencil the cookies out with a glass or with various other shapes. Bake for 5 minutes at 430 F.

This dough can also be made in bigger batches and frozen, so you can bake them as needed. Do not keep in the freezer for more than 3 or 4 months.
Sara wrote on 4:41 PM - Link - Comments

Monday, December 17

I just have the feeling that it's going to be one of those days. I was already in a semi-bad semi-depressed mood when I woke up. I don't like when that happens, because I know i'll get very little (if anything) done and there is quite a lot I need to get done this week before hubby and I leave for the holidays.
Speaking of the holidays. It is really hard to put up a positive attitude and get things done when you're living with someone who mostly isn't giving a damn about them and rather would prefer them just be like any other day full of shit happening.
Sara wrote on 3:25 PM - Link - Comments

I've been looking at posts for the last couple of weeks. When did I start to sound so grownup and what can I do to reverse it?
Sara wrote on 1:13 AM - Link - Comments

I am starting to wonder why Crystal seems to be wanting to cut most ties with her dad. First she pulled out of the deal of coming up here to live with us after Christmas (She's promised many times to come up visiting, but never come through) and then last week Bob called to hear how Blake and her was doing. She wasn't home, but was told to call back the next day. She never called.... I have the feeling a lot of stuff will have to be said over the Christmas holidays. I know I have a thing or two to say, but it all dpends on whether or not she decides to stay away. There is a lot of other things going on too, but they're not for publication right now.
Sara wrote on 1:01 AM - Link - Comments

Sunday, December 16

There might be good news or there might be bad news in regards to my immigration case.
The bad news is, that I heard from someone who is going to adjust from the same INS office as I am and they had just been called for their interview after having waited for 16 months. Also they were adjusting from a K-1 (fiancee visa), so I cannot totally rely on their time frame.
The good news is, that I checked on the official unofficial processing times for that same office and it looks like they have made a great deal of progress on the pile of applications. The first part of my application (I-130) might only be a month or two away from processing. And the second part (I-485), where I actually get to be fingerprinted (for CIA and FBI background check), go to medical exam (So they can make sure I don't have some deadly bug/illness which can put rest of the country at risk) and be called for interview might be only a year from now.
16 months seems to be such a long time, but at least we're not dealing with the Texas Service Center (TSC) where the waiting time supposeldy is much, much worse than at the Nebraska Service Center (NSC). Of course it could have been much better like some of the Service Centers where they're able to do same day Adjustment of Status (AOS) for certain groups of visas.
I know my time will come, unless they misplace or lose my application, but there are days where it seems like there is no end to the waiting time and that I'll be trapped in a eternal state of witing, waiting, waiting.

In other news: We'll be doing some sopping for some last minute christmas baking today. I'll make a batch of a couple of different kind of traditional Danish Christmas Cookies, so we have a little bit of something to take with us, when we go down to spend the holidays with the family. I would have liked to make a special kind which you have to deepfry, but I refuse to get a deepfryer just so we can make those cooikies. I know we will not use it for anything but those cookies. Instead we're going to get a good pot which we also can use for deepfrying when we need to, but that'll be another couple of months when we're going to get new cookware anyway.
Sara wrote on 12:03 PM - Link - Comments

Saturday, December 15

I am so proud of myself right now :) I've managed to get Apache up and running locally all on my own and I even got Perl installed so I can play with MovableType and Greymatter offline, so I can find out which one I want if ever hubby and I decide to go for a domain. *patting myself on the back* *g*

Please don't ask me how I did it because I really have no clue other than I did a lot of searching in Google. Only thing I did find out is, that you do not need to CHMOD the Greymatterfiles if you just want to run them locally on a sever on your hd. The files already have all the read and write permissions they ned. Only took me a couple of hours to figure that one out :)
Sara wrote on 12:36 AM - Link - Comments

Friday, December 14

Random Useless Info about the Blog Author:

When I was a kid, I once raided a neighbors garden for Tulips and ate everyone of them. I thought they tasted good. Luckily I didn't get sick.
Sara wrote on 7:44 PM - Link - Comments

I got my goodies today :) What a joy it was to actually start off the morning with REAL rye bread with cheese. I haven't done that since the day before I left Denmark for good. Even Bob seemed to like it. I wonder what he is going to think about the Cod Roe thingie I got too.

I'm crossing my fingers for a domain in the near future. For so long I've been trying to get by with socalled free providers for all my webneeds, but there are just too many problems these days. Every time I finally have found something which seems to work it tends to close down, because they can't bear the load. Guess I'm not the only one hunting for stuff and since there is fewer and fewer places offering something at low cost or for free we all use those places and make them close down. :|

I also still have mixed feelings about my mom moving to that assisted care facility. I know she needs it badly, but it also tells me that she isn't doing very well healthwise. In Denmark they don't give those places to people who is doing ok. Then ofcourse there is also the thing about people living in such places, normally don't live that long. *sigh* I just hope that Bob and I will be able to visit before that happens, but that is still in the hands of the INS. Yes we could go visit tomorrow, but I have a 10 year ban hanging over my head if I leave the country and try to re-enter before I get the greencard and I don't feel like tempting fate in that regard.

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Thursday, December 13

Osama hurt in the mountains
Sara wrote on 9:47 PM - Link - Comments

And another damn, damn, damn. Had just found the comment system I was using and then they've taken it down for good. Everything is falling apart around me right now :(
Sara wrote on 1:23 PM - Link - Comments

TIme is running out and there is shit I can do about it, unless the INS decides to get the ball rolling in a very short amount of time :( Damn, damn, damn
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Wednesday, December 12

What is it about mothers. Somehow they still manage to get you out of bed at the crack of dawn despite the fact you're living on the other side of earth and the time difference between you and her are something like 7 hours. I don't think she understands the concept of the time difference, but that is ok since I am lucky enough to get to talk with her every so often on the phone. She had several strokes 5 or 6 years ago. Not just one or two, but a whole slew of tiny itty bitty ones all over the place, which left her mostly as an intelligent veggie which just doesn't always understand things. Almost all areas were affected. When I talk with her, there are days when we can have a normal conversation about things and then there are days which makes me cry tears of sorrow when I've hung up the phone. They have been looking onto getting her into an advanced level assisted living arrangement for the last couple of months, but there have always been someone who needed the place more than her. Somewhere I don't think she will survive without the independence of living on her own for very long, but that is ok. I know she has had a full life. And at least we still have a chance to be there together even though we cannot reach out and touch each other physically. I love my mom.
Sara wrote on 7:45 AM - Link - Comments

I;m debating with mself whether or not I should dump the counter/tracking thingie. Granted it's nice to have an idea about how many people are reading my mindless shite, but on the other hand it's also depressing to find out that 95% (haven't made an exact calculation) of the visitors are through the search engines. But I guess you do only get as much from it as you're investing in it. And I'm sorry to say that right now I'm not really able to to invest a whole lot of emotional energy into forging something more. Sucks huh?
Sara wrote on 12:11 AM - Link - Comments

Tuesday, December 11

It is totally and utterly ironic that I cannot find the words I need to write about something I really need to get out of my system, just days after I was talking about how I would love to dabble more in writing. You would almost think, that it's because it's not meant to be written about or at least not written about right now.

My life have been full of that kind of contradictions lately, where I am so close and yet it turn out that I am so far away from the goal even though it is just within sight and reach. Things didn't use to be like that. Somehow a solution or event always happened or came to me just at the right time. I never ever got to sit back while being frustrated that this or that didn't do. Guess some people would say that it's the karma thingie kicking in, but shouldn't there still be some kind of solution?
Sara wrote on 11:21 PM - Link - Comments

Monday, December 10

SNIP You can read all about archive ditties and other Blogger tips and tricks right here.
Sara wrote on 11:12 PM - Link - Comments

I have always wanted to write, but not just the hurriedly jotted down type of notes because I need to remember something. I want to create great imaginary worlds of sorrow and joy, drawing on all senses to feel, imagine, dream and explore. I want to paint pictures by using words as the main tool to give them life. Most I seem to be able to do these days are indeed the hurried short post-it style notes you would normally find hanging on a fridge.
Sara wrote on 7:30 AM - Link - Comments

What is it with those spammers. Lately I have gotten so much mail offering access to barn yard animal sex pictures and related material. That is one sexual orintation I just don't understand or have sympathy for at all. I think it might be time to make a formal subscription to Spamcop. Have to talk to hubby about that.
Sara wrote on 5:03 AM - Link - Comments

Ding Dong, the witch has gone. Now maybe there can be a little quiet in that place. Has been a great need for quite a while. :)
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Sunday, December 9

*sigh* I'm starting to doubt whether I want to go down for Christmas or not. Lately it has been more verbal fighting and harsh arguments than anything else and I really don't feel like spending the short precious time we have listening to that kind of stuff. Over the Thanksgiving holiday I woke up one morning to the sound of... "Do you want me to spank your butt...?" It was repeated several times together with other not so friendly stuff. What a way to start your morning.
Sara wrote on 11:08 PM - Link - Comments

And then they called this morning, saying that there was one of the food items they couldn't make guarentees for with the shipping method at this time. *sob*
Sara wrote on 1:56 PM - Link - Comments

There is nothing like a little retail therapy to life the spirits :) I've just given myself an early christmas present from Nordic House. They have several of the danish food items I have been craving since I left Denmark and they ship all over the US :)
Sara wrote on 3:27 AM - Link - Comments

Tonight a feel a little blue, thinking about the family and friend I won't be able to see for yet another another Christmas holiday. It has been almost 4 years and will probably take another 2 years or so before we can even start planning. My biggest fear is that my mom won't be around for that long and that hubby will never get to meet her. I wish there was a way to speed up things at the INS, but I'm afraid not. Maybe 2004 or 2005 will bring some good news for us.
Sara wrote on 1:16 AM - Link - Comments

Yes I'm a Zee-lister and proud to be. :)
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Saturday, December 8

Darn. I had so much looked forward to finally getting a glass or two of glogg after not having had any since I left Denmark, but I can't even stand drinking one full glass of it. Guess it has been too long since I've been drinking that stuff or anything else with alcohol in it.
Sara wrote on 10:09 PM - Link - Comments

If I were a work of art, I would be Leonardo da Vinci's Mona Lisa.

I am extremely popular and widely known. Although unassuming and unpretentious, my enigmatic smile has charmed millions. I am a mystery, able to be appreciated from afar, but ultimately unknowable and thus intriguing.

Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

Me, extremely popular and widely known?!? That must have been in another lifetime or so.
Sara wrote on 2:47 PM - Link - Comments

I wasn't quite satisfied with what was here so I changed it. Please let me know if anything is screwed up.
Sara wrote on 1:31 PM - Link - Comments

Another dozy week. Probably a good thing too, since the week around thanksgiving was more eventful than I really care to think about. Not much else to say, other than I'm still fristrating impatiently waiting to hear anything out of the INS. Of course I could hear something later today, or it could be another 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 or 7 months. Who knows what is happening at my service center. From what I have read in a couple of visa related newsgroups, not many people have heard anything from the service center I'm belonging to. One could, of course, always hope that they're so busy working on applications but somehow that doesn't seem very likely at all.
Sara wrote on 10:11 AM - Link - Comments

Wednesday, December 5

I want snow and not record high temps.

Sorry for not posting, but for some reason I've had trouble loading blogger
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Sunday, December 2

I'm giving up. I'm tired of fighting the fight and throwing eveything aside and put all plans on hold everytime to kids wants something from us and then in the last minute decides that they don't want it anyway. Tonight I got a comment to the effect, that neither hubby or I am family because we don't live down there. '
Sara wrote on 9:57 PM - Link - Comments

Saturday, December 1

Just a little Christmas like environment. It's probably going to be all I'll get done this year too.
Sara wrote on 5:48 AM - Link - Comments

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